you who came from the stars

mula nang magsimula akong magturo sa isang korean school, lalo akong namangha sa mga korean tv shows.  ang pinapanood ko ngayon ay ang 'you who came from the stars'.  bago lang ito.  nagsimula ito last year at katatapos lang kamakailan.  ang mag bida ay sina kim soo hyun (grabe! super cute nya!  lalo na ang kanyang smile!  very charming and adorable...), jun ji hyun, park hae jin (shocks! super handsome! he's my type!) at yoo in na.

kakaiba ang story, isang alien (kim soo hyun) na na-in-love sa korean actress (jun ji hyun).  somehow, may powers si alien at nagtatrabaho sya bilang professor.  kasisimula ko pa lang panoorin.  episode 1 pa lang me.  slightly interesting ang story pero ang dami kasing gwapo, kung kaya't panoorin ko ito hanggang matapos...

below, ay ang shower scene ni kim soo hyun...  kakaloka!  bakit may towel???  dahil alien sya???  bakit hindi boxer briefs or shorts???  ang dami kong tanong...  basta gwapo sya!  yun na yun!  tanggapin ko na lang...  pasalamat na lang ako!

my two cents

a few days ago, the supreme court of the united states ruled against defense of marriage act (doma).  by this decision, states that allow same-sex marriage can provide marriage to same-sex couples and provide the same rights and privileges just like with straight couples.  i hope i'm right.  but, still there are 37 states that ban same-sex marriage in the united states.  somehow, this is a good step forward for their country and to the gay and lesbian americans.  unlike here in my country, philippines,  such move is so bleak and almost never going to happen.  but, still a victory for everyone and a sign of maturity for all of us.

for the past few weeks, things are not doing well in my life.  so, seeing this on the news put a smile on my face and gave me hope that things will be better.  when i was watching the news with my sister, father and mother, they were unhappy for this.  but, i still feel happy deep inside.  my younger sister was angry because for her it's the end of the world.  she's younger than me for crying out loud.  my mother was very upset and my father was disgusted.  they don't know that there is someone in their life that i think they love who thinks and knows this is hope.

they still don't know that i'm gay.  the signs are there but they refuse to accept.  a few months ago, i thought my mother was alright with it because she said, 'there is nothing wrong for being gay'.  but, somehow, she forgot she said it.

i don't want to call it same-sex marriage but marriage equality.  marriage equality gives gays and lesbians the same rights and privileges just like the straight couples.  not only that, but solidifies the fact that we are people too who are living, breathing, eating, and are capable to love and be loved in return.  we are just like everyone else.  we are not incomplete.  we are not sinners.  we are brothers, sisters, mothers and fathers.  we are good people.

my two cents

an hour ago, my family and i ate at luyong restaurant.  luyong restaurant is a local restaurant here in marikina city.  as far as i know, there are several branches here but i don't know if there are any outside the city.

as i was eating, people were staring.  at first, i thought, they were staring at me.  but, then, i realize they were staring at the people at my back.  i was tempted to look but they were too close to me.  i don't want to embarrass myself, so i didn't.

as i continue eating, people are still staring.  it was annoying.  i thought maybe one of them is a celebrity or a politician or someone famous.  after a couple of minutes, we finished eating.

as i stood up, i try to look but i was unable to.  our car was facing the restaurant so if i sit in front i could see who they were.  when i sat down, i saw them.  there were three of them -- an old guy and two young boys, definitely twinks.  the twinks were handsome and looked clean and decent.  the old guy is in his 60s or 70s and he's gay -- my gay radar never fails me.

that was the moment it crossed my mind -- will i be like him someday?  will i be an old gay man hiring young boys?  i know there is nothing wrong with that, as long as there are above 18 -- consenting adults.

i'm already 33 years old and i'm single.  i want to grow old with someone.  i don't want to judge him because i don't know him.  but, these things came to my mind as i looked at them.  there is a part of me, that i wish i could be like him -- dating two young boys at the same time and with no care in the world.  then, there's another part of me, that i don't want to be him.

i was so quick to judge.  i felt so sad, not for him -- maybe, but for me.  i don't know what will happen to me in the future.  will i find someone to grow old with?  will i grow old alone?

afternoon delight

my two cents

when i visit blogs and websites, i always see this widget tab.  so, i thought, why not put it in my blog and see how it goes.  so, there it is.  i put it on the right side of my blog and named it, 'who's among us'.  almost the same title as its homepage but i replaced u with o.